Nov. 7th, 2007
07:10 pm - ha ha happy
for a plain yellow pumpkin to become a golden carriage
for a plain country bumpkin and a prince to join marriage
and 4 white mice will never be 4 white horses
such fall-der-all and fiddle-dee-dee of courses
but the world is full of zanies and fools
who don't believe in sensible rules
and won't believe what sensible people say
and because these daft and dulio dopes keep building up impossible hopes
impossible things are happening every day
Oct. 29th, 2007
i'm happy :D
seriously happy. that hasn't happened in such a long time. really...i cannot name one single time that i've actually been happy since last spring break. but it doesn't even matter anymore. i'm getting my second chance. and i'm not gonna blow it this time. i was so dumb. theres no one better than him. my daddy told me i was never gonna find anyone who would treat me as well as he did. and he was right. i just can't believe how lucky i got. yay :D
Oct. 22nd, 2007
today was shitty. the end. it was just a bad day.
and no, i'm not ready to forgive u yet. i still hate u with all my heart. u were supposed to always be there for me. u promised. but no. all u could think of was your self. now u'll never get to see me graduate or get married. those things we always used to talk about. and i'm still so angry at u that i could burst. maybe i'll be able to forgive u eventually. but maybe not. so many people loved u. but u couldn't even see that. u just threw it all away.
Oct. 8th, 2007
08:13 pm - homecoming
Sep. 28th, 2007
Sep. 23rd, 2007
they can call me crazy if i fail
all the chance that i need
and they can call me brilliant
if i succeed
they say goldfish have no memory
i guess their lives are much like mine
and the little plastic castle
is a surprise every time
it's hard to say if they are happy
but they don't seem much to mind
they were digging a new foundation in manhattan
and they discovered a slave cemetary there
may their souls rest easy
now that lynching is frowned upon
and we've moved on to the electric chair
and i wonder who's gonna be president, tweedle dum or tweedle dummer?
and who's gonna have the big blockbuster box office this summer?
how about we put up a wall between houses and the highway
and you can go your way, and i can go my way
-ani difranco swan dive, little plastic castle, fuel
Sep. 19th, 2007
hallo alle. warum mich?? seriously. i cannot get a break. i've missed about a week and a half of school, so of course progress reports are coming out friday. OF COURSE THEY ARE!!! gah!!
mono sucks. a lot. i've never felt this run down and icky in my entire life. i can't even leave the frickin house. i am a social person. i don't do well when i'm locked up for over a day. at all. i'm feeling a little psycho. its freaking depressing. and dumb. text messaging and talking on the phone is wonderful, but its not the same as actually talking to someone in person. and i'm sick of wearing sweats and t-shirts. give me a second, i can prolly think of more things to complain about.
gymnastics. good bye to that. this has ended my gymnastics career. i'm not gonna even letter my senior year.
and my brain is melting from too much tv. i can feel myself getting dumber and dumber by the day. i'm gonna have to wear a helmet pretty soon.
"this too shall pass" i just gotta keep saying that to myself. thank u....o gosh, i can't remember who said it...ryan? leland? i dunno. one of my cousins. prolly ryan. but its been a good one. in a couple months this will all just be a bad memory. i can store it deep in my brain and never have to deal with it again. i like that thought. its really reassuring.
lets think of something positive......nope, i got nothing. grrrrrr.
i need a change, something new. i guess i'm getting new glasses soon. that should be fun. a new carly. and maybe i should try dying my hair. nothing too different, but something. that would be good too. probably i'm just really really bored. but now i've got the hair dying stuck in my head, so thats prolly gonna stick for a while. i'll go darker....i'll be more mysterious, less dumb blonde carly. wheeee!! haha
alright. i need to wind down. get some sleep.
guten abend alle :) sweet dreams
Sep. 16th, 2007
the day has slipped away from me. how did this happen? dang. u hear people talking about how tired they were when they had mono, and how much it sucked, and how they just had no energy. but i don't think u can really understand it until u actually have it. sleep literally rules ur life. and stairs are your enemy. they suck.
i think i wore myself out yesterday. i feel worse today than i have all week. two parties in one day obviously wasn't a good idea. but i enjoyed them too much to excuse myself and sleep for a while. i'm too much of a social person. i can thank my mother for that. i guess i'm making up for it today. which isn't all bad.
all i really want from this week is to get some of my energy back. some LA juice would be amazing. maybe a get well bouquet of flowers. i guess i should do some homework too. i'll shoot some pics of tigger for photo class. at least make an attempt at being productive. i need to work on my stress control too. its not the end of the world. cleansing breath. i have a feeling that these phrases could become my mantra. scary thought. haha
Sep. 14th, 2007
09:08 pm - mono is even nastier than strep
so i don't have strep. i have mono. which explains why the antibiotics weren't working. but now i have to quit gymnastics. huge bummer. this is pretty much the end of my gymnastics career, cause i'm definately not good enough to do it in college.
the thing that sucks the most i think is that there isn't a cure for mono. u can't just take some pills and get better. and it lasts FOREVER. plus the doctor put me on this steroid to make the swelling and pain in my thoat go away. but the steroid has a tendency to make people gain weight. so now i'm gonna be a fat lazy non-gymnast person. i swear i'm not crying. no really. and i have to stay home for a week. this is gonna be hard. boo :( plus our football team is losing right now.
but on the positive side i'll have lots of time now to work on my photos. they are in serious need of some photoshopping so that they can be beautiful. and i got lots of junk food at the store.
aaaand some cutie has been texting me. so theres a plus. haha
PS TANNA i got some green tea at the grocery store. its yummy. yes u can have some <3
08:21 am - strep throat is gross
so i've had strep throat for the past 5 days. i've done antibiotics, teas, the whole shebang. and its not better yet. which sucks, cause seriously the only thing worse than continually having a sore throat is continually having an ear ache. grrrr. and i made the big mistake of looking at my throat the other night. ew. swollen tonsils and they were completely white. not a happy picture. so after crying for about an hour i convinced my mother to take me back to the doctor. yay me. i hope they can actually figure out whats wrong with me now. i'm just hoping its not mono. cause that would suck. a lot.
ps. heres a couple photos from the latest shoot :) enjoy
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